Last couple of posts have been short, so I figured I would entertain you all with a substantial longer post. Do you ever get this feeling that the Person, the Entity, the God, the One who Pulls the Strings is a masochist? I don't know anything anymore. I have almost exhausted all prospects of my life being controlled by fate, luck, or destiny. I seriously hope that my destiny is the one that gets talked about at all the Higher Being conventions "Hey G, look how much I can fuck with this guy's life"
I guess part of the question boils down too: Am I a bad person? Do I deserve what I am being served? I'm a complex person, and I am not the first person to come to that line of thinking. On the exterior I am very polite, a nice guy, etc. I remain confident that this is not a front: I am not a Dr. Evil, or a Dr. Wiley, or some other maniac plotting for world domination. Are all my misfortunes due to the times that I have lied, judged others, or is it something else? Is it possibly that the Once Me's actions determine my present status the basics of Karma. It is a very difficult and philisophical question to ask, and alas I am not one to answer it.
Do good things lie in my future, so I look forward to them, or should I learn to find contentness in my sordid state of affairs?
Words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated, any negative comments will not. THIS MEANS YOU Mr. "MAYBE YOU'LL DIE"
It's been SOOO LONG since I last updated. Me so lazy! I bought a Playstation 2 with my Xmas money, and that coupled with all the computer games I got left me with some time killers. Now unfortunately, school hast started back up again, and that has killed a majority of my time. The bastard morons at the Job cut my hours in half and are making me prepare food, which is something I told them I did not want to do, so it is time to take up the Quest for the Holy Grail of Jobs. Wish me luck on that front. Hopefully, I'll be hearing soon from one of my old friends.
UPDATE: I've been ditched AGAIN by another friend. FUCK FUCK FUCK! He couldn't have hung up the phone any faster than he did
Anyway I am home for the threeday weekend since I realized that I forgot notebooks and paper which are kinda necessary to do well in school :P
It also provided an excuse to miss the evil staff meeting at work. Who in there right mind would schedule a meeting at 8 pm on a Sunday during a threeday weekend and expect Attendence to be mandatory. This is definately prompting me to get a new job.
Classes are mixed at the moment, of the 5 classes, one of them consists of three tests, no cumulative final, no extra work, no extra credit. Two of them consists of three tests, no other work, no cumulative final, and only fiftteen extra credit points. One is the Bitch. Three tests (one of them a cumulative final), a hefty research paper and smaller assignments (Welcome to College I suppose). The final class has four projects, and four tests, but no cumulative final. I hope I don't have a lot on my mind like I did last semester.
