I just want to be "normal." To take everything back. Start over. Fresh Slate. Tabula Rasa.
Surprise: Today wasn't one of my best. It seems that even with the medication stupid things build up and are joined by the ongoing things that are plaguing me. It's stupid when you get down because no one agrees with you, and you feel alone on your viewpoint. It's stupid to yell at your roommate because he's one of the ones that contradicts you. It' stupid to get upset when you lose twice at a gameshow, and not being heard. It's also stupid to try to talk to someone about your day by mentioning suicide, because the cops come. I know this first hand. Honestly, I am a moron, and I have to work on not speaking before I think. I just need God. I wonder if he's still listening to me after all the times I lost my temper at him.
