Thursday, June 17, 2004 :::
 

Dirge

I haven't updated in a while, because I'd just be bitching about the same things

::: posted by AJ at 10:39 AM

Friday, April 02, 2004 :::
 

Rain Rain Don't go Away, come again tomorrow

It is raining for the first time in a looooooooooooooooong time!

::: posted by AJ at 7:21 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2004 :::
 

I am

A Group Parasite... I latch on to other people's groups, and try to get them to accept me and then am still surprised when I'm not really expected

A Relationship Vulture... I hover and wait for couples to break up, so I can swoop in and go for it, although it would be logical to assume that it wouldn't work as well, but I guess I never said I was logical.

A Horrible Person... I need to change in order to have things happen, but change seems impossible, and if it were possible, it would be hard, painful, and inconvenient

::: posted by AJ at 10:58 PM

Wednesday, March 10, 2004 :::
 

UGH

Before last night, I didn't know that a test could be 23 pages long

::: posted by AJ at 9:03 AM

Sunday, March 07, 2004 :::
 

WARNING: TASTELESS JOKE WARNING WARNING WARNING

Q: What kind of wood doesn't float?
A: Natalie


Think about it

I told you it was tasteless

::: posted by AJ at 1:27 PM

Saturday, February 14, 2004 :::
 

Happy Singles Awareness Day

While you are with your sweetie, try to remember us losers, geeks, nerds, dorks, loners, and other socially undesirable types that can't get dates

::: posted by AJ at 11:42 PM

Wednesday, January 21, 2004 :::
 

Guess who's back

Back again. My PC had a run-in with a worm, or at least that's the general concensus. So hopefully everything is okay, and I won't have to endur the hell that is PC restarts.

::: posted by AJ at 2:42 PM

Friday, January 16, 2004 :::
 

Manifesto #?: The Long and Winding Road

Here I am.
The Real Me. The Me that I thought I would never become. For so long I was someone else, actually I was a lot of people.
I am a weak person, but I am trying to work on that in various ways. In the past I have tried to hide behind various aspects.
My Illness for one: My OCS. I have used it as an excuse for a long time to explain the way I acted in certain situations, why I still acted like a four year old, crying a lot, having trantums, but the real issue is that I have not grown up, and frankly I don't WANT to grow up. I want to be able to have my parents take care of me, I don't want to have to deal with stuff on my own.
God: I blamed him numerous times, and I still do, but I have to realize that whatever the answer of his existence or nonexistence, that I have some part to blame in the way my love life and social life have gone. Not knowing how to deal with people, hiding in a book instead of learning how to read people, how to interact with them, understand them.

I realize all this now because I realize how much life changes, how much things become more difficult, I am nearing the end of my education, hopefully, and the prospect of having to face the real world scares me. My brother is going over to Iraq, and despite me trying to be hopeful, I am scared that I will never see him again, and I realize that I don't know much, and that I may never know a lot of things, but I can at least try to understand myself

::: posted by AJ at 10:12 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2004 :::
 

One more Day

Tomorrow I promise I will sit down and regale you with a long post, I'm just still trying to sort some things out.

::: posted by AJ at 10:17 PM

Monday, January 12, 2004 :::
 

Or Not

Sorry, I promised a longer post today, but today has been a bad day, so maybe I'll get to it tomorrow

::: posted by AJ at 9:55 PM

Sunday, January 11, 2004 :::
 

Hey I'm back

Hey I'm back, expect a longer message tomorrow!

::: posted by AJ at 9:43 PM